Giving into anger
Feels like giving into hate.
However, that is not the case.
Anger builds into hatred when it is
Unexpressed.
I haven’t allowed myself to express
My anger.
It’s turned to hatred
That turned my heart.
When someone asked if
I would kill my rapists given the chance
I had to think for a long while.
I decided no.
But now I know.
How much hatred has been sown
Into MySelf.
I want to let it go.
I want to let it simmer.
I want to run until my body fails me.
I want to scream until the waves say something back.
I want to let it go.
I want to feel the blood of those I hate.
I want to feast on the flesh of the bourgeois.
I want to take a stake to mine own heart.
I want to let it go.
I want to let the animals free.
I want to burn the pipelines.
I want to blow the dams.
I want to let it go.
I want to do what I was trained for.
I want to snipe the weak.
I want to revel in glory.
I want to let it go.
I want hearts to beat in fear to me.
I want there to be thunder in my name.
I want men to run from me.
I want to let it go.
I want to fuck until I’m brainless.
I want to peg my Ex.
I want to flash the world and say how’s this.
I want to let it go.
I want to burn the house I remodeled.
I want to burn my elementary school.
I want to burn every church I see.
I want to let it go.
I want to box and block.
I want a hit to the jaw.
I want to comeback with an eyebrow split.
I want to let it go.
I want to rip out the popular girls’ hair.
I want to paint blood sigils on suburb doors.
I want to remind people that life is scary.
I want to let it go.
I want people to know that it’s getting worse.
There’s more men on the streets willing to kill for me.
I want to raise an army.
I want to let it go.
Giving into anger
Feels unlike giving into hate.
Hatred is something procured.
Most people never really know the word.
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